Have you ever gotten really emotional for no reason? Like, you can't pinpoint why your eyes are leaking? And if someone asks you if everything is alright, you just want to loudly boo-hoo EVERYWHERE? Well that was me yesterday! LOL. I literally was on a emotional roller coaster.
I felt every emotion. I went from happy to optimist to self-motivating to complete despair all before 3 pm. SMH. In reality, I don't know what I was upset about. Of course, life will be life and it WILL get harder! I guarantee. It took me almost a whole 24 hours later to realize why this mysterious river flowed from my bright eyes. And here are the reasons why:
1. Literally, life! If its not one thing, its another.
2. My time is really limited. I'm always rushing from one place to another. You'll only see me here and there. I'm committed to so many things right now. So work work don't stop!
3. I'm sleep deprived. I usually don't get home until 10 or 11pm at night on average, which means I'm not going to sleep until 2am. Consecutively doing this kills my spirit every morning. I swear I hate getting up in the mornings.
4. School is a bleeping beast! School, I hate you. You're hard, demanding, and time-consuming. However, I feel that being here and doing this is apart of my destiny. So I'm going to keep rocking until the wheels fall off. Lol. Consider you conquered.
5. I finished my summer class that I absolutely loved. I'm not going to know what to do with my Tuesday nights.
6. PEOPLE. GET. ON. MY. NERVES. Like, ya'll leave me alone!!! LOL. My circle is unbelievable small. I ask myself DAILY why do I continue to mess with these people. I can't continue to put up with selfish, negative people. However, all I can do is keep it 100 and work on myself daily. It is frustrating having a one-sided conversation with someone whom talks only about themselves. Then never asks you how you're doing, how your day was, or anything of that nature. Move around please.
7. Finally, I realized that I have been living in Texas for ONE YEAR on August 17th. I packed everything I owned and made the leap. I started my new student orientation, moved into my apartment, broke up with my boo, lost a few friends and have experienced so many other things. Positive and negative. BUT LOOK AT ME NOW. Thank you Lord, for deliverance!!! I should have been dead in my grave. I should have been a Langston graduate working at Wal-Mart. But in all seriousness... I'm grateful for all the progress. I'm grateful for all the bullets I dodged. Like, thank you crazy people for dismissing yourself.
The list can go on and on. However, all of these things helped me cleanse my soul. Throughout all of these tears, I was able to smile.
Peace ya'll.
-Linds
Peace ya'll.
-Linds
